my back is out

well my back is out, hard to function, no pic's this time, things are well other than my old body,i have been thinking about how much do you share at this age, " you are from ethiopia, ect..." i was adopted and i just wanted to belong to my family, my 15 yr old from romania is now interested in romania, before she too wanted to just belong, this path is interesting no guide, every child different, each future difficult to predict, i do know that it is hard, a huge trusting of God that He is in control, i have been blog reading lately about attachment disorders, we have been dealing with that for 14 yrs, very hard, mahlet seems to naturally attach, thanking God for His provision, this is one of the blogs http://www.storinguptreasures.com/2010/02/why-cant-i-love-my-adopted-child.html mother of 10 beautiful children, bio and adopted

Be Mine

she had her first valentine party at school, she loved it!! her language continues to increase like crazy, she is doing well,seems very content, she has never spoken of ethiopia, i wonder when she will, i read about other children doing so and how hard it seems, and will i know what to say....

plodding along

after many snow days and a long weekend we are all still stuck inside, thinking happy thoughts of spring to come quickly, gardens and flowers, just being outside on a sunny day, or even just having the sun shine!!!! oh the good ol midwest, well the fungus that started on mahlet is now on my other daughter and today i found it on me, my head, yuck, well we push on to rid this also, she is doing well, her vocabulary continues to improve and she understands eveything we say, she has become a "sassypants" highschool musical her very favorite, and she wants to marry Harry, her brother, the cleaning has ended, darn, now i have to ask her to pick up after herself, she eats most anything and continues to be happy, i do see times when she see's old photos of ethiopia when she is confused and then is sad, i think this age is difficult, trying to be present in the present and the past so incredibly different from her day to day, the photos of haiti on the news bother her tremendously, her past is unknown to us, we continue to pray for joy for her heart and healing, still love reading everyone's stories when i can

Merry Christmas

ugh! i have not been able to post or upload photos lately, here's our christmas card photo, things are still going well, she started pre-school last week and loves it, she can finally kiss and say goodbye to me without screaming, she loves being around other children and BABIES, she is crazy about BABIES, that is all she talks about, can a baby do this or that and when am i having one, very funny i know, she loves the movie charlotte's web and chicken and french fries and does not want injera, and the laundry must be done, no piles left around, our machine broke 6 days ago and she is going crazy telling me i need to wash the clothes, yes i know and no sight ahead of where the broken part is located as far as the repair guys know....and merry christmas we are full with our bundle of joy

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

we are thankful for all of our children from all over the world to little ol kansas, we are blessed!!!!( Mahlet's swim lesson and Harry got dreads in honor of his sis, did not last long)we will be spending the weekend with family and friends, Happy Thanksgiving!!!

caution: overly emotinal woman

i must confess my love for this child, who would have known she would bring so much love and joy to our home, i truly cry at night watching her sleep, thanking God for who she is, her kisses that last for several minutes, how she continually is telling me "good job mommy" and rushes to help me complete anything i am doing with pure joy,happy, happy, happy and how she makes my husband weak in the knees, and how my kids are crazy for her! we are truly blessed to have her in our family!last night i was starting to get out christmas stuff and she saw mary and joseph and baby jesus which led to the christmas story, then the cross, she was in tears, truly understanding what i was saying and she was crying for jesus, i was as overwhelmed as she was, she has a great understanding of birthdays because she has had 2 in the past 2 months, so to say she is excited for jesus birthday is an understatement, we repeated her birthday because she had only been home a week and we had celebrated quietly, this time it was chucke cheese,riding all the rides, her brothers winning her 600 tickets for that "special necklace" in about 45 minutes, pizza, soda, balloons, eating her cake like cookie monster, thanks to her brothers, and dancing, and of course wearing her favorite ehtiopian dresses, it was wonderful!!!!! we are thankful!!!!!

okay, so i'm 41

there i said it on paper, i am into my forties, sure, i'm okay with this, uh hmmmmm, anyway, my kiddos and their girlfriends celebrated with me, i was missing my oldest son in college, we still had fun, Mahlet was VERY upset it was my birthday, even though we celebrated hers already, i think we had been home such a short time she didn't even know what was going on, so i tried to explain everyone has a birthday, she's next! so we will be re-doing her birthday, she is very excited, she is still doing very well, i can't believe it, she is still not ready for me to leave her except with my mom, we are doing little mommy and me classes, hopefully this will help her adjust slowly to being away from me, remember, i'm an older mom, i need little breaks away from my mini me